|| Hari Om ||
It was November 23, 2010, the second day of the adhiveshan conducted after Shri Aniruddha Pournima festival. This day was to conclude with Satsang which was open for all, so I left early from my office and rushed to Mulund where the function was being undertaken. I was fortunate enough to get a seat right in front of the stage. That night till 10 pm I danced to the tunes of the gajar especially when Bapu himself took the mike to recite the gajars. Everyone present had lost all affiliations to worldly things and had become one with the Almighty. Even I forgot everything and was dancing merrily.
For the next couple of days I felt very weak and tired. I thought it could be because of the way I had danced during the Satsang and ignored it. The following Thursday November 25, I reached Shri Harigurugram for the Pravachan. P.P Bapu spoke about ‘Shri Varachandika Prasannotsav’ for the non-Maharashtrians brothers and sisters.
My stomach ache aggravated after the discourse so I asked my husband Shri Sachinsinh Bhatkar to leave for home as soon as possible. But he got stuck in some work and it took us almost post-midnight to reach home.
After reaching home my condition had worsened as the pain kept aggravating. I kept on chanting ‘Bapuraya Bapuraya’. Even my husband felt helpless on my condition. It was the same day when we had got my pregnancy report which was positive and hence this sudden severe stomach ache made us tensed.
Sachinsinh had tried all possible ways and means – applying udi, ointment and even placed hot water bag on my stomach. Somehow we managed to kill time till early morning. But later Sachinsinh called Dr. Leenamveera Padelkar. Even in that condition I insisted that my husband does not reveal about my pregnancy to Dr. Leenamveera as I wanted to give this news first to P.P Suchitdada. Dr. Leenamveera prescribed a pain-killer which subsided the pain to a certain extent.
Later both of us went to the clinic to inform P.P Dr. Suchitdada. At the instance of seeing P.P Suchitdada I completely forgot the pain and trauma I had been through the whole night. On reaching inside his cabin, P.P Dr. Suchitdada asked, “I heard you were in an excruciating pain last night and had called on Dr. Leenamveera. Have you conducted your sonography?” I told him about the pregnancy report which was positive.
On hearing this, P.P Suchitdada said, “You should not hide any bit of information from a doctor as it could be harmful.” Then he himself called gynaecologist Dr. Rajashri Shah and narrated my medical condition. I heard something called ‘ectopic’ in their conversation. Later P.P Suchitdada asked my husband to carefully drive and take me to Dr. Rajashri Shah’s clinic for another sonography.
We reached by 2.30pm at the clinic and since then Dr. Shah was constantly with me. She conducted all the necessary tests and declared ‘ectopic pregnancy’ which needed immediate surgery as it would affect my life. I was admitted at Dr. Vikram Shah’s nursing home at Shivaji Park. I had a firm belief that my P.P Sadguru was constantly there with me. That day my surgery went on till 1am and I was out of danger.
Now when I sit back and recollect the whole episode I realised that it wasn’t possible for me to bear the anxiety all by myself had my Sadguru not been around with me. How could I deal with the ordeal which went on for more than 6 to 7 hours all by myself? Why didn’t I experience the pain which I should have in case my Sadguru wasn’t there with me? While Dr. Shah was tensed for the critical operation, I was on the other hand consoling her and giving her moral support to stay calm. How was this possible? From where on earth did I get this confidence and strength to forget my pain and instead comfort the doctor?
Later I realised that had it not been for my Sadguru who was there throughout with me during the crucial time, I would not have been even writing this article. “Don’t worry. I will personally be there with you at the clinic during your operation,” were my Sadguru’s words which did not let any wrong to happen. On the contrary, I truly believe that it was only because of him that I returned from the clutches of death which was standing right besides my bed inside the operation theatre.
I know that my Sadguru who was waiting outside the operation theatre and consoling my husband, had actually taken the entire pain on himself to ensure that I come out safely. It is a known fact that pregnancy inside the fallopian tube could be dangerous for both the mother as well as the baby as there are chances of the tube bursting as the pregnancy progresses. In this case either the mother’s life is in danger in which case it has to get operated which is a major surgery in medical science. In this surgery there are almost 20 stitches which is again a painful affair.
But all this was set aside by a mere small surgery which I am sure was possible only because of my Baba. Who created a protective shield covering over the fallopian tube which was about to burst? None other than my P.P Sadguru stopped the severe flow? My roof was entirely distorted but still my house remained dry and cozy even during strong stormy weather, thanks to my beloved Sadguru.
I was questioned for all of this several times, as to why it should have happened to me. But only I know the fact that had it not been for my beloved Sadguru, I would not have come out of this critical situation. Also at the same time, I know for myself that it was I who was responsible for the deteriorating condition of my health.
My daily routine and hectic schedule was responsible for putting me in this ordeal. Most of us feel that we are doing a great deal by working hard throughout the day, rushing to work and then coming back home tired and stressed. Time management was something which I had never practiced. Despite my Sadguru often saying and repeating, I had never practiced in my whole life. Through his “Shrimadpurushartha Grantharaj”, P.P Bapu had constantly suggested about the type of food to be eaten, things which one should consciously avoid, etc. But I never adhered to all that he said or wrote. He has also explained the kind and type of work which should be done. But my lackadaisical attitude, waking up late in the morning would cause me to hurry as it would leave very little time for household activities before I could rush for my office.
As a result I could barely pack tiffin for my husband and then would not get time to pack tiffin for myself. And then would manage with a dosa, or a sandwich as my lunch. Despite constantly reminding, I would ignore eating leafy vegetables, vegetables, fruits, etc and instead hog on to eating non-veg. And the result is evident….
Mentally also this lifestyle creates a lot of problems as waking up late would cause to hurry other works and as a result I would get irritated before rushing to office. This also would mentally affect my health.
And I am sure, no father would appreciate his children experiencing problems in life. This means that whenever we misbehave we are indirectly bothering our beloved Sadguru who in that condition also tries to bring us out of danger. He kept his assurance “I will never leave you” with me and despite making so many mistakes in life, he did not leave me even for a second.
Believe me Bapuraya, I am wrong. I have made the most grave mistake of my life, but you pulled me out of the clutches of death and gave me rebirth. I promise that I will never commit the same mistake again in life, but in case I fail and again commit the same mistake, I am sure you will definitely give me the support, love and affection. The way every mother is vigilant behind her baby to help support him in case he falls while putting the first step, my beloved Bapuraya will always be behind, in front and besides me.
|| Hari Om ||
