|| Hari Om ||
I bow at the lotus feet of Sadguru Bapu and would like to tell him that even if I were to become physically incapacitated, I would have no qualms about it but let the incapacitation of my mind wither away. Please do keep my mind in control and also healthy.
I had gone to Suchitdada’s clinic on December 04, 2010 to show him some reports. These reports belonged to a boy from Bapu parivar. The boy’s mother was with me that day. On reaching Happy Home, in order not to get late to be at the Clinic, I stood outside and performed my Namaskar in front of Dattagurubappa and Mahisasurmardini Aai. When I looked inside, I saw Nandaai offering her respect in front of Aai Mahisasurmardini. I did not get to see Aai’s face. However, I did not feel like moving away from there. However I sort of lingered there. When I looked into my watch, it was nearing 2 pm and thus, I stepped forward two steps. Someone from behind said,”Wait a minute. Aai is going to pass by.” Therefore, I waited near the idol of Dattagurubappa near the elevator. Aai came by just then. Aai gave prasad to a little child there and proceeded towards the elevator. For a moment, I thought that Aai did not see me. In fact, we were just 2-3 of us who were standing there. However, even though she had not looked at me, she went close to the elevator and asked me,”Sushma, are you not feeling well?” I went closer to her and said,”I feel quite thirsty frequently.” “Did you get your blood tests done? Why don’t you go to the clinic and meet Dada?,” said she.
If Aai had not said anything to me, I had not planned to Dada anything about me. I felt that the lady who had come with me to ask Dada about her son was more in need of an advice than me. Moreover, I was feeling quite fresh and fit. Nevertheless, I did talk to dada and asked him to examine my health. Dada checked my pulse and asked me to get some tests and sonography done. Dr. Leenam Padelkar asked me to get these tests done as quickly as possible. Without wasting any time, I got those tests done and took the reports to Dada the next day. I then came to know that my blood sugar fasting (without eating anything) was 363 and post lunch (after having lunch) was 415. Besides that my Cholesterol and other associated parameters were on the higher side as well. Sonography report revealed that my bladder was slightly swollen as well. That is when I came to know that I was diagnosed with Diabetes. On looking at the report and on noticing that the Blood sugar had risen drastically, Dada asked me,”are you stressed due to some reason? Are you feeling weak?” I then told Dada,”In fact Dada, I had come with another patient yesterday. Based on Nandaai’s suggestion, I informed you about myself.”
Dada then asked me to go and consult with Dr. Soumil Mehataliya. I went down to Gurukshretram and chanted Shri Gurukshetram Mantra 108 times. I finished my chanting around 4 pm. When I looked outside, there was quite a lot of crowd gathered there. I wondered about the crowd outside at that time. On enquiring, one of the devotees said,”Please, do not go away. Aai is coming down.” Till that time, I had forgotten that it was a Saturday. Nandaai goes for her Aatmabal classes around that time, you know.” I was standing out there waiting for Aai to leave. There was enormous crown outside. Aai came down and just before sitting inside the car, she looked casually outside. Right from where she was standing, she asked me,”How are you?” I went closer to the gate. She came forward near the gate. She said,”have you started the medication? Since yesterday, I have been quite worried for you.” On hearing that I my eyes welled out. Honestly, how much she worries, you know, for every one! There are innumerable souls like me on this earth. She is concerned about each and every one. In spite of that all of us behave any which way we desire. Several of us do not even think about the impact our ill behaviour creates on Bapu, Aai and Dada. I felt ashamed thinking about all of this.
After that I went to Dr. Mehataliya’s clinic. He saw my reports and asked me,”has anyone come along with you?” I told him that my son was sitting outside. He called him inside. He asked me,”are you serious about these reports?” A bodily organ can become dysfunctional due to BP, Sugar and Cholesterol. Besides that there are chances of getting a heart attack. Are you feeling weak? Do you feel giddy? Do your legs hurt?” However, I was not feeling any of those things. In fact, I was quite fresh and he sensed that too. In fact, he exclaimed that,”in spite of all this, you are looking quite fresh.”
As directed, they proctored 3 shots of insulin in a day and also gave me some other medication. Even after 4 days, the sugar levels did not come down at all. On Thursday, I got a call with a message from Nandaai that she had asked me to chant Shubhankara and Ashubhanashini Stotra 11 times each. I was also conveyed her thought that I was going to remain fresh forever and that Nandaai wanted me in her endeavors as well. On hearing this, I immediately chanted Shubhankara and Ashubhanashini Stotra 11 times. And to everyone’s surprise, my sugar levels dropped to normal. They have been normal for the past 45 days. Fasting sugar is between 85 and 90 and post lunch is usually between 90 and 110. After two days, I informed Nandaai about my sugar levels. She informed me that for a period of one month and if possible, life long, I should be chanting these two stotras 11 times every day.
Whenever I went to Dr. Mehataliya, he would tell me that I looked quite fresh and that I was responding extremely well to the treatment. Within eight days, the insulin injections were stopped and the doctor recommended that I take only half a tablet in a day.
When I looked at my report closely, I noticed that my Haemoglobin was 15. Before this time, I had not managed to donate blood ever because my haemoglobin would never cross 9 or 9.30. But before my Sugar problem was diagnosed, on May 6, 2010 when Bapu recommended everyone to make modifications in one’s food intake and habits, I followed that advice. Then on my haemoglobin increased to 15! Doctor said that this level of haemoglobin in men is also a rare occurrence. He further added that as a result of high haemoglobin, I looked fresh.
That is when I realized that one’s Sadguru takes care of a devotee before a calamity hits him. After the May 6th 2010 discourse, I made modifications in my diet. I began to gargle with salt water to start with, I began to consume 1 ltr water. I also started to consume Shatakshi. I began to walk in the sun light. I began to consume fruits, leafy vegetables and also began to consume Mackerel and Sardines. This ensured my haemoglobin level reached 15. I did not suffer any adverse effects. Most importantly, it was my Nandaai’s ever loving glance and blessings that did the trick.
Now a days, every 1 in 5 people are suffering from diabetes in India. This ailment has become quite common. Why did Nandaai take so much care of me? I wondered about that. I am narrating my experiences just to let everyone know that our mother looks over all of us.
In my earlier office, one of our staff members knew face reading. I was not aware of it in the beginning. On 15th June 1997, he had seen my face and had told me (at that time, I had not begun to follow Bapu),”In a short while, you would be faced with a great difficulty.” I remember, I had laughed it off then. However, at that time, I used to believe in face reading, astrology and palm reading. Four days after that prediction, my younger sister and her husband died when their boat capsized. Because of that incident, my faith in this Boy’s predictions doubled.
After a month, when I resumed my job, I was reminded of his prediction. I then asked him if all my difficulties were over. He then looked at my face and said that there was one disaster which was yet to strike me. He also mentioned to me that it was not going to strike me physically. On August 22, 1997, just as he had predicted, my father got 3 heart attacks one after the other and he died soon after. We did not even get a chance to provide him any medical care. After we dealt with all of this, I asked him if everything was over. He said that my face was cleared then. He said that there was no reason to fear anything now.
As a curiosity, I asked him how long I was going to live. He promptly replied,”you would not even live to be 50 years. You would pass away before you complete 49 years.” I had felt terrible hearing that. My son then was quite young.
I completed 48 years on December 23, 2010. My ailment was diagnosed the same year. It was probably a turning point in my life.
I began to follow Bapu since March 1998. I felt that my life began to change due to his discourses. I can enumerate several such changes and transformations. However, let me share with you Bapu’s words in the light of this experience. Bapu says,”Astrology is a valid science. An astrologer can definitely tell you things that are waiting to come your way in future. However, he cannot tell you an antidote to your difficulties, if any. Sadguru, however, makes you follow the path of devotion. He makes you do service. As a result, he destroys your bad destiny. One’s sufferings are alleviated. He can do that because he is much above all of these things.” In the last 14 years, since I heard this sentence from Bapu several times, all my fear had vanished in thin air. On December 4, 2010 (before I fell sick) Bapu had talked about this topic one more time during his discourse. Now I was not afraid of dying. I just felt that whatever life I still had to live, must go by as per my Sadguru’s desires. In the last moment, let me see Bapu in front of my eyes. I asked only that in front of the Lotus feet of Bapu.
Therefore, I am reminded of a sentence by Kaka Dikshit as conveyed to Saibaba,”I am okay to bear the incapability of the body but let me never suffer from the incapability of the mind.”
|| Me To Keval Payancha Daas I Naka Karu Majala UdaasI
jowari Hya Dehi Shwaas I Nijakaryas Sadhuni Ghya ||
|| Hari Om ||