|| HARI OM ||

“Aniruddha tere dwar jo aaya
Khali hath na jaayega
Teri krupa se naash hoga
Mere ek ek sankat ka |”

I begin by offering the pranam to my Bapu, Nandai and Suchitdada as it is their grace that I am able to pen this experience of grace and love.
 
I have been part of the Bapu Parivar since the last two and a half years. Before that I neither believed in God nor had any faith. However, after coming to Bapu and attending the Upasana at the centre, I felt firm faith inside of me. Bapu is now my father, my God, my everything.

In the Krupasindhu magazine I regularly read the experiences of Bapu bhaktas and always felt the urge to share my feelings too but then what would I write? I had no 'special experience', I thought. I felt remorse. Bapu is not looking over me, I concluded.

There came a day when all my wrong notions fizzled away. Let me share the moment.

On 27th July 2010 my father passed away. People came in to offer condolences and after they left I invariably had a headache. I did take tablets but the headache persisted. I went to a nearby hospital at Sasanenagar, Hadapsar. I was treated for two days but I just had no relief. The doctors decided to put me on saline. As it was being administered I started feeling giddy and things blurred before my eyes. I was frightened and desperately started chanting Bapu’s name.

Until the 14th of August there was no improvement and I was admitted to the Mohintara  Hospital at Hadapsar.  The doctors treated me but there was no change. In fact it became worse as I could not see at all. The doctors advised me to have a CT scan.

I was chanting Bapu’s name continuously and it was definitely reaching Bapu. All my reports were normal. In spite of serious problems like loss of vision, giddiness and severe headache all my reports were normal. It just had to be Bapu's grace. It could not have been anything other than that.

There was no improvement in my vision so the doctors advised me to repeat the MRI. On the basis of the report it was decided that the fluid in the spinal column would have to be tested.

On that day, i.e. 19th August  my brother did the ‘Paduka pujan’ as part of a chain. I went for darshan, took ‘prasad’ and applied ‘udi’. I felt I could see faintly. Initially I thought I was imagining it but gradually I could see everything clearly.

I had got my vision back!

I have no idea about why or how it happened. What I know and am sure about is but I only know that it was my rebirth.

My brother and I stay close by and for any of Bapu’s functions or puja we co-ordinate visits or work schedules. But this time he did not give my name for ‘paduka pujan’. I was upset but when I gave a quiet thought to it, I realized that it was Bapu's will. Bapu willed it that way because at that time my husband, my brother-in-law and I were all at the hospital. What happens, always happens for the best.

When I was in the Mohintara Hospital a Bapu bhakta was on duty. That gave me  solace that my Bapu was with me. The doctors too were of the opinion that faith would work wonders. 'Have faith and leave all to God' they said. I did.

“I shall never forsake you" is Bapu's Word and He keeps His Word, come what may. So, by Bapu's grace, I got my vision back and went home fit and happy.

This experience strengthened my faith and trust in Bapu. He even fulfilled my wish of doing the ‘paduka pujan which I had missed due to my illness. On 13th of September I got an opportunity to do the ‘paduka pujan’.

I know and love to repeat that all of this was Bapu's grace and His love.

Bapu you are my Saviour. I sincerely pray at your lotus feet. May I spend the rest of  my life and all the future births in your seva.

|| HARI OM ||